I wrote this when I started my recovery. The shaking was over, but my mind was not clear.

The lock on this cage is on the inside
Unlock this pain?
Where is the key or is it a tumbler sequence of right choices
Is it a set of long numbers– is it just a willingness to open the lock?
What is the right sequence?
Where is the key, if there such a thing?
Which is it?
Where do I look?
Tired at staring just out.
Tired of looking down at my feet.
Tired at looking for the next lie.
Such chains around my mind.
Can someone open this cage?
Find and fill that hole in my soul…
My mind is out of control.
Help me find the grace in my space.
Reach in, please make me free!