The other day after a meeting, (not an AA meeting), I and some friends Anne and Amanda (mother and daughter— also normies) decided that pizza was required. Anne is struggling with unknown a skin condition which makes her scratch. To get some relief, she uses ice packs. The ladies were in the conversation on where they will pick up a bag of ice. Me being me, talk to the pizza lady about ice, I boldly ask for a free large bag. She comes back with a small zip-type bag. She tells that is all the ice she had, and she gets a bag for $2 at the liquor store. I announce I am going to the liquor store for ice. I get an escort from the mom. She tells me that I need help because the neighborhood is bad and I need her protection. Which is odd, but ok. She mentioned that she cannot let her daughter escort me because she never lets her daughter out with guys. Ok, I understand her rules.
I do not need protection, but it was odd. The real reason is they know about my alcoholism, so they fear about me being tempted going into the liquor store. It was so cute. They do not know that the obsession to drink has been lifted. The rest this is how the obsession (Drink Think) was lifted for me.
Caveat the obsession is lifted and the gift of sobriety is on loan from God, and if I do not stay spiritually fit, I could lose this gift.
For me, the power of how God uses the steps is a twisted journey. I used the FEAR of my 4th step for a relapse. After that setback, I approached the 5th step, spending time and after 2-1/2 hours with my sponsor, the obsession was gone. It felt like a mountain top experience. I felt release from shame, guilt, and all that garbage. I knew something was different.
But why did God remove that “Drink Think” and not fear, anger or other character defects, hum…
It was not understood by me until I with my current sponsor, and his sponsor, who worked with his sponsor and this is the wisdom, I was given. Starting on page 63 of the Twelve Steps and the Twelve Traditions which is the sixth step.
Page 64, paragraph 1— So in a very complete and literal way, all A.A.’s have “become entirely ready” to have God remove the mania for alcohol from their lives. And God has proceeded to do exactly that.
Page 64, paragraph 2— Having been granted a perfect release from alcoholism, why then shouldn’t we be able to achieve by the same means a perfect release from every other difficulty or defect?
All of this leads up to the next paragraph 3 of page 64— When men and women pour so much alcohol into themselves that they destroy their lives, they commit a most unnatural act. Defying their instinctive desire for self-preservation, they seem bent upon self-destruction. They work against their deepest instinct. As they are humbled by the terrific beating administered by alcohol, the grace of God can enter them and expel their obsession. Here their powerful instinct to live can cooperate fully with their Creator’s desire to give them new life. For nature and God alike abhor suicide.
They commit a most unnatural act, in other words, suicide. God hates (abhor) suicide. So He gives a release or removes the obsession. He did this for me and others. Not because we are special, but because God saw value in me and others and gave me back my life. The obsession is lifted, and I have freedom today to walk into liquor stores because God has done for me what I could not do for myself.
Big Book Page 100 paragraph 4 – Page 101— Assuming we are spiritually fit, we can do all sorts of things alcoholics are not supposed to do. People have said we must not go where liquor is served; we must not have it in our homes; we must shun friends who drink; we must avoid moving pictures which show drinking scenes; we must not go into bars; our friends must hide their bottles if we go to their houses; we mustn’t think or be reminded about alcohol at all. Our experience shows that this is not necessarily so.